Ten days ago you took total control of my cock. You gave me strict instructions of when I could stroke, how I could stroke, and denied me from cumming. You did this after I begged you to take control of me and teach me discipline, control and total obedience. I do not own a chastity device, and being married, couldn’t possibly wear one without it leading to some very awkward questions. As I type this, with one hand as you instructed, and from my knees, I give you my word that I have adhered to your directions entirely and though you, and others, have tempted me, I kneel before you in total obedience.
For someone like me, accustomed to stroking and cumming whenever the urge suited me, I knew this would be difficult. I’ve said to many, including you, that this is already infinitely more difficult than I ever imagined. I don’t recall ever being this aroused. I am constantly thinking about stroking, either because I’m not permitted to, or because I’ve been edging to the point of agony and barely holding back what wants so desperately to come out. To say you have taken absolute control would be accurate and perfect. I have denied my wife sex even when I’ve craved it more than I have in years. I’ve trembled and shivered as my body fought to hold back from disobeying you more than a few times as I edged. And throughout this entire experience, my devotion and love for you has only gotten stronger. I’ve never felt more submissive and vulnerable than I have during this experience with you Goddess. You are my world every day. You’re my first thought when I wake up and my final thought before falling asleep, only to dream of you. I am yours.
So I kneel before you today, as agreed upon, to plead for release. I thought I’d be a desperate puddle of a man, rambling about how badly I NEED this and begging you to allow me to cum. I thought that nothing could ever compare to the exquisite relief that I would feel when you granted me permission. But while part of me desperately wants to cum (and we all know what part that is!), another part of me finds myself wanting very badly to please you by enduring more. I know it pleases you to deny me and to make me suffer. I know that pleasing you matters so much more than my own pleasure. So as I weakly plead my case before you, asking permission to cum, I offer that whatever decision you arrive at, I will obey with pleasure knowing that it is your decision. Handing over total control to you has been amazing. I’ve always maintained that true chastity involves a Domme’s ability to regulate their slave’s stroking through devotion, not through device. I’ve been physically able to stroke and cum any time I wanted during the past 10 days, but my desire to please and obey you has overcome any physical urges. I love you Goddess Jessica.
Humbly yours,
slaveboysmith
